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4th bloom

[Vinnie had been spending a lot of time on his own outside, watching the flower buds peek through the snow. Had he been actively avoiding certain people? Hell yes. But he was privately trying to console himself with the slow return of spring.

It was getting warmer. Greener. All his hopes for the future lay in the coming month.

All are welcome to bug him as he mopes in the melting snow.]

= = =

I wanna get back into training again. At least doing something. I'm sick of waiting around and feeling like this. I've been getting into fights anyway, so... I should've told you about those.

I know I've been pulling stupid shit lately. You can lay it on me for that.

= = =

...Sorry for being such an asshole.

There's a girl that likes me. I don't know what the fuck t'do.

So if you guys have any ideas on how I should stop fucking up my life, I'm all ears.

By the way, Smoe: those nose things work really well. Thanks.

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[Vinnie stared at her for a second longer, before shrugging and turning to leave. Looked like she was busy then. Trying to accomplish what, he didn't know. But it sounded like she didn't need him here.]

...Fine.

Good luck with whatever.

Urrrgh!

[Fffiine she gets up.]

I was just trying to do some Moo Meditation, but it's so hard! I didn't expect you to show up...

[Yes. Sasha trying to meditate.]

My butt is so cold.

[Pause.]

I...think we should talk.

Edited 2011-02-24 10:33 (UTC)

[Moo Meditation... was that like what Kojiro did, but on a diet of Moomoo Milk?

At the sound of Sasha's voice, the Venusaur hesitated, mid-step. Like always, he never could leave his sister hanging. By now, he wasn't angry anymore. He was just tired.

He just felt so tired of the two of them, being unhappy together.]

...Yeah. I guess we do.

[Sasha is no better. She feels guilty about a lot of things and...]

...

[It's hard to say anything when your butt is cold.]

M-maybe we should find a bench somewhere and talk.

[Vinnie nodded, unable to think of anything to really contribute to the notion. He was headed to his usual spot on the tulip-staring bench anyway. With a gesture for her to follow, he continued on the path, feeling too conflicted to say a word on en route.

It was true they needed to talk - to thoroughly talk. But it just felt safer to say nothing at all. Every word that came out of his mouth these days seemed to just screw things up more. He felt trapped.

So, Vinnie plopped himself down on the bench, staring glumly at the snow and flowers.]

So...

Edited 2011-02-24 11:49 (UTC)

[She felt her stomach tighten as they walked in silence, not quite sure what she should say or when she should start. Even when they arrived she fidgeted her hands, exhaling and watching the large clouds of smoke leave her mouth.

But to stay that she felt terrible about what had happened lately was an understatement. And she needed to start somewhere. What better place than now?]

So...about me being a jerk lately...I'm sorry.

[Well, since they were both getting that out there, Vinnie might as well take his stab at apologies too.]

I'm sorry 'bout being an asshole for... the last few months, I guess.

And for shit like... I dunno, pissing off the whole team and dragging everyone down with me. Being an over-protective deadweight. Screwing up all the time.

[She laughs a bit somewhat bitterly at that. Is it the beginning of a grin? Hard to tell.]

I don't think I was that pissed off at you,. really. Well, okay that's a lie. I shouldn't lie. Yeah, I was angry when you sneaked up on those dates, but it's not everyone who'd let their teammate cover their shirts with snot and...you're... [she gives him a slight elbow tap, but her grin quickly turns into a frown.]

I think I finally understood how you felt when I saw Dana...

[She pauses and sighs.] I breached your trust.

Edited 2011-02-24 12:59 (UTC)

Then that makes us even for being paranoid stalkers.

[He snorted, trying to make light of how peeved he really felt about that. Guess that was how Sasha always felt. That sort of realization only pissed him off a bit more about himself.]

You can be as angry as you like at me. Cuz you know what? Part of me hates th'fact that my little sister's growing up. You really won't need me to protect you. I mean-- [There was a dark chuckle, acerbic and curt.]

I couldn't anymore if I tried. It drives me nuts, being useless like this.

I don't ever wanna see you hurt that bad again.

No...I don't want to be angry anymore. Especially after what I did myself to you I...It's just I guess I'm protective too...and the fact she's a Timeless One made me feel inadequate, useless and then she said you should be...then there's the fact that I...[She blushes a tiny bit but keeps frowning]

[She leans on him slightly.] Teammates always need their wing men, no matter what. I'll always need you at my back, Vinnie. [A tiny smile, as she tries to find humor in this, or at least attempt to.] Especially with Rock Types.[But she's back to being serious again.]

There's always going to be downfalls right? If that fight taught me anything, it's that I need to be more in tune with my feelings and not to let myself be clouded by judgment. I think I upset Marie so much today I..don't even know what's going on with him anymore. I feel like I've lost touch with everyone. [And she sighs again, blushing.] Sometimes I wish I was just one of the guys. It would make all of this a lot less complicated for everyone, right? If I liked a girl, you'd all be congratulating me instead and we'd talk about them together, and I wouldn't be thinking of y-[She coughs and removes herself from his side.]

But never think I won't need you. That's a lie. If I didn't need anyone, I'd just leave this place. [She scoffs slightly.] I have to admit it's been tempting the last few weeks with all that's happened...but I don't think I'd ever have it in me to leave you guys.

You're all just too important to me.

...If you were a guy interested in a girl, I'd be giving you a man-to-man talk about responsibilities. Just so you know. [Just like he did with Marie!]

About Dana... [He sighed, scratching his head. It was that can of worms that had really shot this whole situation out of control, and he had a feeling it wasn't going to be resolved unless he opened it again.] You don't need to feel inadequate. You really think after all that shit I said, that I was gonna jump at dating any girl who's into me? Her being a god, that just... that just makes it harder.

I know what I am. I know... it was the biggest mistake of my life, leaving my family once. I'm not gonna do it again, t'any of you. You're still my best friend, and my Sis, and if you ever left then I'd go and find you.

...ha! [Suddenly being shooed out makes sense] I see. I guess that's why you wanted me to leave when you talked with Marie alone, right?

I know but... [she bites her tongue.] I guess I was so angry I couldn't see past my own snout. I'll do my best, I promise. I know I'll probably be rough around the edges when she's around, but I'll do what I can. [Pause.] And no sneaking if you guys go on a date.

...is that a challenge? I could probably fly faster than you could run after me.

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[Her expressions turn dark again, however.]

...there is something else I should tell you. When I was gone for a week...

[Vinnie quirked a brow.] Yeah, well. What else'd you think I was talkin' to M about?

I'm not... [Huff, sigh.] Not dating her, really. I don't know what I wanna do yet. I been sittin' here all week getting advice from people, but I suck when it comes to shit like followin' your heart. 'Specially when my instincts are telling me the opposite thing.

And no, that wasn't an offer to race you 'cross Kanto. But lemme guess. [While not quite dark, an air of bitter disapproval crossed his face as he recalled what the other resident Charizard had told him.]

...You met up with Char that week. Is that what happened?

You know...guy things. Not dating things but other...guy things. [TMI. TMI.]

Well um..I really can't help much with dating advice and I've been a jerk regarding it...so I guess what I'm saying is...what am I saying. At least talk to her if you haven't already. [She frowns when he mentions Char's name]

...wait. You knew? Did Red tell you why I left...?

[She looks slightly disappointed.]

Edited 2011-02-28 10:47 (UTC)

I will, I will... when I figure out what to say.

[Awkward cough.] No, wasn't Red. Just something Char mentioned when he wandered by t'piss me off. I punched him in the face.

So what happened?

That's good to hear.

I...oh. [Oh well that's just great. Of course it was going to be Char, why didn't she even think of that possibility! That's just it's just...rggh. Sasha doesn't even reprimand him for getting into a fight with Char.] I hope...you showed him what Red Team is all about. [Punching him in the face and barfing on him.]

[She twiddles her thumbs and looks at the ground nervously.]

I wanted to see other Charizards. Well not just charizards, I would have been content with a flock of Charmanders or a Charmeleon or two...

[Maybe it explains a lot, maybe it doesn't. She's going to go on. Maybe you'd understand the urge to be with those of your kind, in fact you probably understood that a lot better than her. Sasha's species is known to be hard to train and the type to roost by themselves. Family is not exactly a big word to them.]

I haven't known my kind at all apart from Char...and I had a book which told me where the last few remaining wild Charizards are supposed to roost. I wanted to know. What my own species is like.

Imagine my surprise when I met Char along the way there.

[Vinnie mused on this. It had to happen eventually - Vinnie could barely fathom the idea of growing up severed from his nature and instincts as a wild Pokemon. Knowing that she was bred, never knowing her parents and others of her kind, it bothered him. Looked like it had really begun bothering her, too.

He didn't understand why she hid the true purpose of her trip, but it wasn't as though Vinnie was free of secrets either when it came to the impulses in his blood.]

I get it. Figure it'd gotta happen one day... You deserve to know 'bout your own kind. Pity you had to run into that asswipe on the way.

You get any answers?

[She moves uneasily on her bench, letting her feet sway on the ground]

We didn't find any wild Charizards....well...we did but they were kept in a mine to work illegally. [She bites her lip.] They were...they made me look savage and wild. [The is a long, drawn out sight and she leans back again]. We tried to save them and all they could talk about was about how pretty my eyes and my tail were. At one point they all tried to jump on me. It's a good thing Char was there, ti was too dangerous to take all of them alone who knows what might have happened and...[yeah better not get Vinnie too worried about that.]

Vinnie, I don't think they'd seen a female before. They need to be rehabilitated and taught how to be wild. I was going to help out Char do it but...

I don't think I can teach them anything. I can't face them. Char's a much better Charizard than I could be.

Edited 2011-03-05 10:22 (UTC)

[Growl. Vinnie couldn't help but think back to what the other Charizard had told him during their tussle. He had to force himself to push it out of his mind. It certainly hadn't endeared himself any more to the guy.]

You don't teach a Pokemon t'be wild. Those instincts don't go away. It's remembering.

Years of livin' like that, it gets to you. I still got some've it in me, good and bad. I still... think about what it might've been if I never met you guys. The forest's in my blood, just like fire's in yours. Doesn't make me stronger or better than Bulba. He acts more like a 'Saur than I do, half the time - and he sure as hell's never been wild.

Char's no more fuckin' qualified than you are. He talks a lot'a shit, but he ain't fit to teach nothing.

Edited 2011-03-05 12:19 (UTC)

[She listens to his words in silence. While Sasha doesn't really completely agree with them, having been there and witnessing what Char did, it is really nice of him to say that. Especially after all the shit she's been pulling off regarding who to date and everything.]

...Thanks. It means a lot.

I guess I still need to find that fire in me. Sometimes it feels like I'm just trying to extinguish it. But I don't want it to happen again. With Volgin... I just don't know what to do, sometimes.

Fighting your nature's a losing battle, but you don't have t'be like Char to find that balance. There's no reason you can't be you and have that flame at the same time.

S'far as I'm concerned, every other Fire Type's just been a torch. They don't know how t'do anything but burn for themselves. You're better than that.

You're the goddamn sun. You'll find your way, I know it.

[Sasha just grinned wider and wider and went on. Sometimes the only medicine someone needed was having someone care about you and tell you the right words.]

Alright. I'll do it!

[Do or not do. There was no try, after all.]

Good. [Vinnie grinned, even though he still wore the lingering air of emotional fatigue. It was just good to see his sister smile again. He hadn't realized how sorely he'd missed it.]

No matter what happens, you'll always be the sun t'me.

[Hug?]

The blackest sun, heh? [She's teasing a little. This night been nearly an emotional roller-coaster.]

[Hugs are indeed very acceptable and she does not hesitate when it is offered to her.]

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wow for some reason I thought I had tagged this already

It's cool I wanted to add more. Like a line.

the most important lines

i'm teen pregnant. it was char

FUCEN... CHAR...

Maybe we should call up Falcon. I hear he can help me with this problem.

o ok

awsm

NO I WILL NOT GIVE THIS THREAD UP

BUT HOW IS BABBY FORMED

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