4th bloom

[punchtheflowers]

[Vinnie had been spending a lot of time on his own outside, watching the flower buds peek through the snow. Had he been actively avoiding certain people? Hell yes. But he was privately trying to console himself with the slow return of spring.

It was getting warmer. Greener. All his hopes for the future lay in the coming month.

All are welcome to bug him as he mopes in the melting snow.]

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I wanna get back into training again. At least doing something. I'm sick of waiting around and feeling like this. I've been getting into fights anyway, so... I should've told you about those.

I know I've been pulling stupid shit lately. You can lay it on me for that.

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...Sorry for being such an asshole.

There's a girl that likes me. I don't know what the fuck t'do.

So if you guys have any ideas on how I should stop fucking up my life, I'm all ears.

By the way, Smoe: those nose things work really well. Thanks.

Comments

[punchtheflowers.livejournal.com]

[Three years of this madness. What the hell was wrong with this place. He really was going to take a conveniently timed trip out of here next February, then.]

I dunno, just... I wasn't sure if I was ready and I had to think about it. I mean, she's way out of my league! How do you even think about dating someone who's basically a god compared to you? And besides that, it feels like there's so much I still don't know 'bout her. We were just friends... we only really started talking after the whole mistletoe thing. I can't tell how it'd work if I even gave it a shot.

[boxingmidget.livejournal.com]

[Mac would try to take his own experiences and what Falcon had told him to help with this. Mac had been in his funk for a few weeks before he actually went to seek his enlightenment and advice, and at a time he let it really eat him inside. He owes Poo and Falcon for all that help. Mac just had a lot of lessons to learn about an alien concept. Just, he hoped those lessons would translate well and help this troubled bro.]

She obviously found somethin' in your that she really liked. Even if she was a god and even if it wasn't such a long time.

Love's a funny thing, Vinnie. I ain't even sure I get everythin' about it. I mean, I think it's possible you can love someone but just not that way. Sometimes, I know that can come up and cause problems if the feelings are different between the two of you. Even if the two people are totally different in ways ya can't control.

Point is, if you don't like her that way...then you just don't. It ain't somethin' you can force out and start feelin'. Unless if what you say is true, then you just don't know enough about her.

[punchtheflowers.livejournal.com]

Well, I dunno about force. I know I care about her a lot. But ever since she told me, I can't really look at her the same way, you know? When I think about her, there's a hugeass what if that stares back at me.

If I gave her a chance, maybe... but it's a lot t'ask for. Especially since I'm not in a great state on my own, and with my family.

[boxingmidget.livejournal.com]

[Mac sat for a couple seconds, looking like he was in thought of what to say. It really wasn't long until he spoke up again. Get ready for a long breath of discussion. He is seriously seeing himself in Vinnie's shoes right now. Mac had to tread carefully but he was gonna give a huge bundle of advice straight from this heart of his. He told himself to not be insecure about this love topic anymore, Mac made that resolve when he tried to be more honest to himself with these kinds of things. But it was barely a month ago when he had this resolve, was he really cut out for giving love advice?]

Stuff like this is really somethin' you gotta think about, I ain't denying that. It's tough to deal with. You carin' about her could mean everythin' but it ain't just your battle. If she's willin' to move on and stay friends with you, that's also her call that she's gotta make on her own.

[A breath.]

And what I can kinda mean also by "force" is that you can't make yourself be ready if you ain't. You said you got other problems you gotta deal with first. Family's important. It's gonna be worse for you and for this girl if you go in without any clear idea of what's goin' on inside of ya. Even if you feel like you gotta give her a little space, not sayin' you have to...but y'know...It sounds corny but you gotta listen to what your heart says.

Sorry these are taking so long how did this happen

[punchtheflowers.livejournal.com]

[Vinnie nodded slowly, taking all this in. Mac's advice was earnest, honest, like he was speaking from experience himself. At the heart of the matter, it was still a decision that he had to make, but it was reassuring to have his own feelings - even if they were of anxiety and hesitation - validated.

Because it was true. He didn't feel ready, not in any way. Not for this. And maybe he never would be ready - dating gods wasn't something you were supposed to aspire to. And all this talk of love was, ironically, tearing his family apart.]

My heart's screwed me over before, but... you're right. I... owe it t'her to be honest 'bout my dumb feelings.

Guess that means I should talk t'her...

I could wait for beautiful tags forever Toni

[boxingmidget.livejournal.com]

[Mac would so tell you but this was not a discussion about Mac right now. This was a talk about Vinnie's problems, not a discussion about a chapter in Mac's romance history.

Mac had respected Vinnie that he cared such a great deal about his family and this girl, it was really something to admire.]

I'm tellin' you honestly I don't believe feelings're dumb. At least, yours ain't right now.

I know you'll do what's right, Vin. If you care about all these people like this then I believe it will turn up okay. It probably won't seem like it at first, and I don't doubt it'll be hard thing to talk to her about. But bein' honest when you do talk to her could at least show her that she's important to you, even if she seems down about it for a while.